February 5, 2013

Lord,

I just need to talk to you, and hope to hear you through my words. Because I don't know how else to hear you.

We went through all this stuff, Bob's cancer, my cancer, Bob lost his job, used all our 401k to try and pay bills. Then we opted for bankruptcy, lost the house, rented a house, got new jobs. Still too many bills. My work was scrutinized, again, to the point where I could not go on doing this thing for Walmart. I believe that it was divine finding the job at rockin J ranch in Boswell. It fell into place so easily.

So today I gave my notice and was gone in an hour. Bob is with his brother at the Little Red River at his cabin. I am questioning my sanity, again. We will live on a 2000 acre ranch Sunday thru Thursday alone. Thursday thru Sunday the Jacksons will be at their home.

We will be with the ranch hands, 200 head of cattle, Boone the ranch dog and 2000 acres of unspoiled rolling pasture sprinkled with Pecan trees. Ponds with fish, blinds with duck, thickly wooded forests with deer and turkey. Stepping back to a quieter time, still with access to technology as needed.

Every day we will tend to things. I look forward to the simplicity. I am not a complicated person, I have lots of baggage and I make things seem complex, but simplicity suits me.

There is no question this suits Bob. He is handy, loves to be alone and loves nature. I can't wait for this to happen and I'm afraid at the same time. The change is so big and I want to handle it with grace. So many times you have gifted us with various things and we have not fulfilled your desire.

We have an opportunity to take care of somebody's prized property and help with their happiness.
I want to do a good job at this. I want to see your face and delight in your creation.

Please Lord may we please you. It is so amazing that this is going to happen, I am very thankful.

Thanks be to God.