it nursed my scarred heart
blurred the lines of pain that
crossed my lips and seared my
mind, my brain

no liquid courage;
mine blinded rage within
sublime and filtered light that
cast a shadow still

longing for the state
it took me to...to find it
was the journey i desired
no map, no guide

the first sip
was like a thousand lovers,
the drink, like a kiss
warmth surrounding this
night, this perfect bliss

find me won't you cabernet,
the dance is perfect
until i don't know your name
and the floor falls away
and my world is spinning

dark, afraid, panic-stricken
i am with then without
either way no joy fills the
hollow, only hope is to
let you go.